Irrational, Paranoid and Over Sensitive
Posted on 2003-06-06
Ok, maybe I over reacted just a little bit. I've been told, more times than I'd prefer, that I'm irrational, paranoid and oversensitive. I'm going to blame the medication.
I've gone from 'cold-hearted' to 'over sensitive' in just a few months, and as you can guess, this bothers me terribly.
I can't help how I feel, what upsets me, and the extent of it. Trust me, I've tried. I don't like living like this, any more than you like hearing about it.
It's not like I enjoy being fragile, or that I'm gaining anything positive because of it. I'd keep my mouth shut, but apparently keeping it all bottled up isn't a good idea either.
So what do I do???
The little things that most people overlook, the things that don't matter, mean a lot to me. It's almost considered an unwritten rule that little things will upset me. What am I going to be like when something bigger comes along???
I'm fragile. I'm fucked up. I'd really like it to stop now.....
Please???