Too Tired
Posted on 2003-05-20
It comes from inside. I can't get away because it's just there. It pulls and I push back, but I'm too tired to find the force necessary to push it away once and for all.
I don't understand.
I've learned so much in the last 3 years, and I'm trying so hard to keep myself together, but the opposition is stronger than me today. I feel weak, lethargic and listless, like I'm collapsing in on myself. On days like today it crushes me under it's weight. You'd even be able to see it happening if you were here.
I can't hide from myself. I can't hide from my brain, from what's inside me 24 hours a day. I can't get away. For me there is no escape until I finally sleep.